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Just keep pushing on!
You are enough!
KEEP ON PUSHING ON!
Well it seems that at the moment everything is being thrown at me to knock me off track. The last week has brought a whole lot of challenges and I am defo learning that it’s important to keep on breathing and taking a moment to centre myself in order to keep myself physically and mentally together. From clients cancelling their contracts to my wifey being unwell and a few personal issues it’s definitely been and still is a rollercoaster.
I would like to say that amid this I have been on point with my eating, haven’t fallen into the trap of a bit of overtraining and have kept myself together but that would be one big FAT LIE!! What I have done though is be kind to myself, stayed accountable, recognised where I am struggling and kept pushing forward. A bad day, morning or afternoon doesn’t mean failure but an opportunity to pick myself up, move forward and learn from my struggles.
There have also been some real breakthroughs where new clients have come onboard, I have recognised where my eating has gone wrong and fixed it and my little sis has visited from Canada, which was amazing. I have also realised how much I love my wife and I will always have her back as she has mine.
Poor Sarah came down with a horrible flu like virus last Tuesday and a week later she is still woman down. This has meant that I have been doing a lot of diary juggling to take her clients as well as mine. Today I have played the role of Slimming World consultant, Personal Trainer and Sports Therapist! A miracle has also taken place in that she has listened to me and stopped trying to force herself to run before she can even move from off the sofa! Bottom line is I think I want her well as much as she does, because I miss her and she is my due north when everything else becomes shaken.
One thing that this has bought to the forefront for me though is that I am a FIXER!! Give me a problem and I will do all I can to sort it. The problem comes when I can’t and that leaves me feeling vulnerable and useless when the bottom line is some things are out of my control and that can’t be helped. Clients will always come and go even when I don’t want them to as their circumstances change; disagreements will happen and my past will sometimes come to challenge me. Christmas and the lead up to it will throw up hurdles for me to overcome with the lack of structure and a focus around food. How I move forward positively knowing that I can’t fix all things is a lesson I am currently learning and fighting to win the battle.
My little sis is amazing and knows me so well. Even though we don’t see each other often we pick up where we left off and have the right to speak into each others lives. Like me she has had her fair share of heartache, difficult relationships and also battles to fight against the odds to find her feet and be successful. I am incredibly proud of her and I love the fact that she has found her soulmate and business wise is soaring.
There is an honesty between us and a right to challenge each other to look at things differently even if it’s uncomfortable and isn’t what we want to hear. There are changes afoot and she was able to talk into the situation and encouraged me to stop looking back at the past but look to the future, to see the positives and take a step forward. We both know that I struggle with change, but she was right that although it can be uncomfortable sometimes we need to jump and trust the process and see the bigger picture, rather than hanging onto the present.
It was lovely just to hang, chat and talk honestly about our own struggles without judgement. We both come from broken marriages and have had our own battles along the way, but we have always had each other’s backs and she was actually the first person to challenge Sarah and I – back in 2019 - to actually get together and to stop hiding behind fear of what others would think or how we would be judged.
One thing I have realised this week, is that I AM STRONG, I AM NOT PERFECT ….. but I AM FOCUSED, and I AM WORTH FIGHTING FOR! My eating may not be perfect and I maybe struggling with not training too much whilst juggling so many things, but I am STILL STANDING and the things I struggle with DON’T DEFINE ME! I get to choose each day to show up, to put my best foot forward and that is what is most important. I also have a heart for all of my clients and nothing can take that away!